STUDIO83

Dear God, I am only 14 but i have gone through what I can describe as hell. Growing up with my mother I was abused physically and mentally and I still have burn scars on my back from it. A year and a half ago my brother committed suicide and I was the one that found him. My father got married a year before exactly. My mother got married almost a year ago to a guy that she knew had mollested girls before, but she still made me live with her - until a little less than a month ago I had hid everything, I was being raped and mollested by my step-father. I turned him into the police and the case has already gone by, he was found not guilty, also 8 and a half months ago I had an abortion because I wasnt sure if it was my stepfathers or my boyfriends baby…yes I have had sex because I feel that it has ruined me and I am not worth anything. 2 weeks ago I ran away from home and was charged for that and i was high. My boyfriend is into drugs and a gang but that is what I have dropped down to. I wish that i could not be what I am today, I have lost my faith but I keep feeling that you are here and you are trying to show me a sign that I am ok and I will do great in life. I just want to have a sign or maybe some closure in my life, is this truly what I was meant to be…o and I tried 2 commit suicide myself a week ago and I have began cutting myself. I am not sure what to do…can you help me?? Hannah - USA