I looked into your eyes
Sparkling in the peaceful, moonlit sky
Black as the night, I find myself gazing at the stars and wishing they rained down on this earth that was scraping my back with stones and shrubbery
I wanted to disappear, not to be… close my eyes and to cease existing…
I looked into your eyes
Through mine, battered, one half shut, blood escaping my nose
I saw fear dancing in the black of your eye
Your confusion made a mockery of the deed you deemed so masculating
Although your hands dug into the flesh of my thighs
Groping at my meat as if you wanted to finger my very soul
Your body trembled defying the lies that your mind was feeding you.
We both listned to the jeers of those you had deemed your brothers
They stood around us, laughing, giving guidance, cheering with approval during this, your initiation into so-called manhood
But for you, in me you had found someone you could punish for the wounds life had wronged you with
Between my thighs you punished your father for not knowing of your existence
In me you thrusted your hatred for not being the man you so desperately wanted to be
You pinned me down and forced yourself onto my bossom, if only to find the warmth that she… denied you
While the world slept, hidden in tall grass, beside a path that failed to take me home you created an alter onto which you sacrificed my soul to appease your demons by violating my being
Cloaked under the silent night that stood and stared at me refusing to hear my cries muffled by your hand on my mouth
I looked into your eyes… young one…while you laid me bare under the moon and I bled the earth…
My fear could only be mirrored the fear I saw in you
You pressed yourself against me, I felt your heartbeat, it was as desparate as mine
My eyes watered, your eyes watered…
To your crew you were becoming a lie of a man
But to us, the months will bare witness and I shall give birth to the truth of the child that is you
I remember, as I look into this babie's eyes.
They look like yours.
Illustration by: Vus
*speechless*